I am the Immaculate Conception

Roving Medievalist posted this picture of Bayeux Cathedral, and it brought back a memory. As an Anglican priest I was travelling in France, and took some time to stop at Bayeux. It’s a quaint town with this neat little cathedral, and a great museum where you can view the famous Bayeux tapestry.

I had been puzzling for some time over the dogma of the Immaculate Conception, and had come to the very Anglican conclusion that it was a permissable pious opinion. (This is an intellectual way of saying, “If that sort of thing gives you kicks, I guess it doesn’t do any harm.”) I still couldn’t figure out why the Catholics made such a big deal of it, and I didn’t see why I ought to believe it. In fact, even though I understood some of the logic of the dogma, and accepted that it didn’t do any harm, I just didn’t believe it. It hadn’t made that long journey from the head to the heart.

So there I was in Bayeux, and I went into the cathedral. I wasn’t consciously thinking about the Immaculate Conception. I was just interested in the architecture, the dark Catholic-ness of it all and was busy snooping around enjoying myself. I found a dusty little side chapel dedicated to Therese of Lisieux (who lived just down the road) and was bemused and a little pleased to find her fingerbone preserved in a reliquary there. I poked into a few other side chapels then, not paying much attention to what I was doing, felt inclinced to light a candle in one and kneel down to pray. I stayed there in silence for a fair time, just soaking up the stillness and the peace. I can remember thinking that the Catholic Churches had a lot more ‘presence’ than the Anglican Churches and put it down to the fact that I was in France and the French are good at that atmosphere stuff. (Now I realize the presence I was aware of was the Real Presence of Our Lord’s Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity)

Anyway, after a time I got up and left the cathedral, and as I walked out into the sunlight I suddenly realized that I believed in the Immaculate Conception. I still can’t explain it, except to say that it was a gift. Then as I walked down the street I also realized that the chapel I had knelt to pray in was dedicated to St Bernadette, who’s personal experience of the Blessed Mother did so much to convince the whole church of the veracity of this dogma.

This is why, in conversations with non-Catholics about Mary I try to explain as much as I can, but I also really understand why they don’t ‘get it.’ The veneration we have for Mary is something more than an affair of the mind. It is mostly an affair of the heart. We can explain and argue about our beliefs about Mary, but the beliefs are only part of the whole picture. In the end Mary takes us into a deeper relationship with Christ, and this deeper relationship could never happen if we didn’t first experience her love and her power in a personal way.

It’s simple. Do you want to understand what Catholics believe about Mary? Then open not only your mind, but your heart.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/05227411938775535934 Jeffrey Smith

    The story and the link are bloody marvelous.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/16220380405943891911 RobK

    That was beautiful. Thanks – I must make it to that Cathedral.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/06735175874152541268 Stephen Wikner

    This is going to be a bit of a rant. Be warned. It’s interesting how parallel experiences can differ so much. I was in Bayeux last August and got to the Cathedral just as they were turfing people out in anticipation of a wedding. No chance of poking around for a quiet chapel in which to say a prayer and light a candle. But that can happen anywhere. I am, contrary to the alleged English stereotype, a confirmed Franophile. I love everything about the place. I’ve even been known to make excuses for snotty Parisian waiters. But there’s one exception: French churches. I find them unloved, often neglected and uncared for and many provide the very worst examples of post-Vatican II vandalism: side chapels completely devoid of altar furnishings and used as places in which to stack unwanted chairs and other clutter. And then there’s the muzak . . . I could go on and on. My heart bleeds because so many of the buildings themselves are miraculous. There are of course honourable – very honourable – exceptions. The Sacre Coeur in Montmartre is one – in spite of (or perhaps because of) the teaming hoards that are always in there. The basilicas in Lisieux & Lourdes, neither of them distinguished architecturally, are others. And then both St-Sernin & L’eglise des Jacobins in Toulouse. But you know what, for me the most wonderful little church is the twin-aisled wooden, medieval church of St Catherine in Honfleur on the Normandy coast. They were preparing for a TV broadcast when I went in last summer so the place was festooned with cables and arty looking individuals working out camera angles and yet the place positively oozed prayer. Totally amazing and recommemded without reservation to anyone who happens to be in that part of France.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/06735175874152541268 Stephen Wikner

    Oops. I misspelled ‘hordes’. Apologies. And carried away as I was in a French enthusiasm, I quite forgot to say anything about the Immaculate Conception. As a mere Anglican I still wonder ‘why?’. It may be so but surely Our Lady would still be unique in creation even if she were not immaculately conceived? No similar problem with that other ‘difficult’ Marian dogma, the assumption. I happen also to be quite fond of the Orthodox notion of the ‘dormition’. I find both concepts fruitful aids to contemplation of the Queen of Heaven.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/12373317560249811006 Fr. Dwight Longenecker

    I rather like the ‘lived in’ feel of many French cathedrals. They’re homely and natural…shabby chic. In my opinion too many Anglican cathedrals have become pristine (but rather sterile) museums.


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