The World Has Changed


There's a weird feeling I get these days because meditation and mindfulness are so popular. It's odd living in a world where people are likely to know some form of meditation or yoga or Eastern philosophy.When I was growing up meditation was just something that movies made fun of with dramatic leg poses and exaggerated Oms. I felt a defensive pride that I knew what meditation really was. It was something that me and my family did. It was something special to just a few people.It's … [Read more...]

Do The Gods Get Jealous of One Another? {Newbie Question}


Someone recently asked me this question and it really surprised me. It's not something that ever occurred to me. But I can see what she meant. Like if one God has more worshipers than another do they rub it in each other's faces?At first this seemed pretty ridiculous to me. But then I thought about all the stories and myths around the Gods and some of those stories do involve competitiveness and one-upmanship.At first I think that since all Gods are in reality One then it doesn't make … [Read more...]

Making the Most of Our Time


People often urge you to make every moment count, to live life to the fullest, to remember that you never know when you might die and you don't want to have regrets.I live in tremendous fear of those statements (I know, I have a lot of fears!) Part of the fear of death that I have is that I fear having regret, not getting everything out of life possible, wasting time, wasting the enormous opportunity of a human embodiment. It's this fear that drives me to always be improving myself and … [Read more...]

Routine is the Enemy of the Present Moment


I have been trying to figure out why I have the pattern I do with jobs. When I first start a new job, I love it. Doesn't matter what it is. It can be data entry and I love it. A few months down the road I start getting bored and then resentful and eventually I'm dreading going into work and having intense anxiety during all of my free time. This pattern has repeated over and over and over. I've rarely stayed at jobs longer than a year (though I'm proud of myself for four years at my previous … [Read more...]

Forgiving Yourself for A Change In Game Plan

Me about 15 years ago

When we're teenagers we're often encouraged to start thinking about our long term plans. At least by your early twenties you are setting up your path to take you to whatever profession you (or your parents) have planned. You take the steps you need to get there.But sometimes years down the road you find that you actually don't enjoy the thing that you thought you were going to love. The entire plan you made was for a life you assumed would be just right and isn't feeling like what you want … [Read more...]

Inertia v.s. Housekeeping {Happiness Project}


Goal One: Take the Extra Step I love a clean, clear, clutter-free space. I feel anxiety and depression lift when I am in a room that is neat, tidy, and comfortably decorated. I've always longed to create those spaces in my home. Since I was a child I wanted to be a housewife and make my home radiate peace and beauty.That goal has over the years butted up against an inner nature that tends towards tamas. I don't say that as an excuse or to limit myself and my potential, but it's an … [Read more...]

Change Your Diet, Change Your Life


You all may remember that I revamped my diet on the advice of the book WomanCode by Alissa Vitti. To help heal my PCOS, which is causing infertility, I cut out simple carbs and cut down on sugars. I'm still doing it, four months later, keeping both a low-carb AND mostly vegan diet. It can be done!So is it working?Yes, it definitely is!It's astounding to see how much of an effect diet really does have on your body. This shouldn't surprise me but it still does. I think of healthy diet … [Read more...]

What I Know About Myself {Happiness Project}


Having observed myself now for 33 years there are some things I do know about what makes me happier and unhappier... Things That Make Me Happy A clear, bright, clutter-free spaceBeing free to pursue spontaneous trips, visits, and activitiesLearning new thingsGetting out of the house at least once a dayHelping people (even if it's as simple as showing them where something is in the grocery store)Bhajan groupFeeling productive Things That Make Me Unhappy Feeling out of … [Read more...]

Happiness Plateau


I think I can safely say that we all want to be happy. What we pursue in life, whether a career or God or a hobby or other passion all comes down to an attempt to feel content, fulfilled, and happy. America was founded on the principal of every individual person's right to pursue happiness and I don't think that meant in a selfish way at all. Pursuing happiness doesn't have to mean doing things to please yourself and focusing on your desires. It means that we are uncomfortable with the restless … [Read more...]